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Daniel Fast 2013 Recap

February 3, 2013 by Trina 6 Comments

The fast was officially over last week but due to a very busy schedule I didn’t get around to posting anything last week.  I’ve got to get better about that.

Anyway, I wanted to do a recap to let those of you interested know how it went.  My focus on this fast was to stop worrying so much.  It’s the sin I struggle with the most and it pretty much controls my life most of the time.  Between losing my father in law back in December and a few weeks after that, the school shootings in Newtown, I was living on the edge of my seat waiting for a bad phone call every day, a complete nervous wreck.

On the third day of my fast, I was reading Crazy Love during lunch when my husband called me.  His voice didn’t sound right and the first word he said was “Mom” and my mind immediately went to the worst case scenario.  I lost it.  My whole body started shaking and I was sobbing.  I didn’t hear the rest of what he said but it turned out he was yawning while trying to tell me something his mom learned about from the bank regarding a loan.  Something I had specifically prayed about for her that morning in fact.  But I didn’t hear any of it because I was in complete freak out mode thinking something horrible had happened.  Now that, my friends, is ridiculous.  That’s when I knew fear and worry had consumed me and it was in control, not me and not the Lord.

It took me several minutes after that to regain my composure and I thanked the Lord for answering my prayers for Marie and for who He is then I picked up reading where I left off in my book.  When I turned the page, this is what I read next:

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God never ceases to amaze me with his timing.

I have noticed an improvement in the level of fear I carry around daily.  But it’s not a one of those things you get victory over and then never think about again.  Worry is something I will probably always struggle with, but I’ve learned if I stay close to the Lord I will be better equipped to fight off those thoughts and not let it consume me.  I sort of see it as getting out of the boat and walking on the water toward Jesus like Peter did.  The wind and waves are always there threatening to take me over, but as long as I stay focused on Jesus, I won’t sink and I won’t succumb to the water/worry.

29 “Come,” he said.

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” Matt 14:29-31

I worry about the safety of my children the most, my safety and the rest of my family.  I don’t want to lose another loved one.  But I don’t want to remain in fear everyday of these things happening.  I want to be one of these people:

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I finished Crazy Love during my fast as I planned to, but I didn’t move on to Forgotten God yet.  I really needed to not rush into the next book without meditating on what I’d read in Crazy Love.  It’s one of those books that you don’t need to rush through and it really requires adequate pondering.  There’s a lot we American Christians do out of habit or wrong thinking that we think are right that just aren’t.  This was a hard pill to swallow, but I am determined to change a few things I read about in the book in my own life.

As for the meals, my favorite things to eat on the fast are fruit/veggie smoothies, Chipotle Chili, Apple Cinnamon Hot Cereal and dates with pecans {they look like bugs but they are SO GOOD}.

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If you did a fast this January, I’d love to hear about it.  And if you blogged it, leave me your link so I can come read about your experience too.

6 Comments

  1. What you wrote about fear really struck a chord with me – it’s something that God has been working on in my life because I get consumed with worrying about the safety of my family…especially when I am not with them. I have the worst anxiety when I have to leave for a couple of days and entrust my kids with a grandparent or even my husband, who I know is just as careful as I am. But, you are so right – trusting Jesus means surrendering completely, including giving Him my worst fears and knowing that even if one of those awful things were to happen, He would give me the strength to walk through it.

    The small group that we lead at our church is going through the Living Crazy Love study right now and it has been such a great experience – can’t wait to see what more He has for us to learn! Thanks for sharing about the Daniel fast and what God showed you :)

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    • Yes, those are my fears exactly! I think a lot of moms go through this at varying degrees. It’s just hard for us when we feel such an immense responsibility to these little people. We are to definitely take that responsibility with the weight it deserves but to not let fear of horrific events consume us. He’s working it out in me! So glad to hear of your Living Crazy Love study. I would love to do one of those with a group to talk about what it says in the book. I had a lot of trouble with some of the revelations and would need to talk to Jonathan about it afterward. I think it helps with a heavy topic to have other people to help you work through it.

  2. I enjoyed reading more about your fast and what you learned from it and how God showed you things that need to change in your life. I know exactly what you mean Trina, there are times when I worry, but it’s not fear, it is more of worry or just plain ole stress trying to get a grip on me which is satan ofcourse and I just have to pray and ask for God’s peace and grace, and just give EVERYTHING to Him and He is so merciful to take it from me and He is such a loving, giving God and I am so thankful for having Him in my life and my son’s also- actually my whole family,but nonetheless I try so hard to keep my eyes focused on Him and ask HIm for all of HIs many blessings He has in store for me, He is always there and always right on time- since we all know His timing is perfect and only HIs. I pray that you will continue with dealing with your fears and I will be praying for you since you are such a wonderful Godly girl like me, that’s what we do is pray for one another and whatever our needs may be. I so enjoy seeing all of the delish food that you always choose- looks so yummy. I would enjoy reading that book so I may check out that one and the other one you had talked about. Take care my friend- it is a wonderful post.

  3. Oh my goodness. As I sit here worrying about everything I decide to read the blogs I follow and come upon yours and let me tell you how much I needed this. I need to remember to trust in the Lord and stop worrying. Right now I am worried about my job, my kids, my relationships. I worry that I might make the wrong choice, I worry that I am not good enough for someone, and I worry about not knowing what God wants me to do. I get myself to a point where I feel better, I pray and tell myself things are going to work out and God knows what he wants me to do but with not having the patience to find out what that is, I end up worrying. I will have to check that book out! Have a great week!